The Chariot represents conquest, victory and overcoming opposition through your confidence and control. Any success will be a result of applying these factors to the situation. You will need to use the strength of your willpower to overcome any obstacles or challenges in your way. You may even find that by leveraging any opposing forces surrounding you at this time you can use them to your advantage. You must be determined, self-disciplined, and hard working. If you are, you will triumph over any difficulties or anyone who is trying to limit you. This struggle will ultimately make you stronger…You must cultivate the ability to withstand the rigours of what is required.
This is a time to be strong and in control. You must also draw upon your willpower and self-discipline.
Full disclosure; I have a temper. I get angry, violent, and can be straight up rude sometimes. I have a not-so-nice streak that is borderline arrogant and often times very judgmental. Now, what does this have to do with the Chariot? It’s residual anger and attitude towards three little words that jumped out at me.
Conquest. Confidence. Control.
I’ve realized over time that yes, I am a control freak. I don’t like being subject to circumstance or the whim of others. I don’t respond to orders, threats, or intimidation even though I consider myself an introvert. I went through my teenage years being taken advantage of and being walked all over. I became a bit of an anarchist as a result. A little bit of a rebel.
As I grew up, began my career, furthered my education, I was given the opportunity to control my own future. At the same time, I developed as a female, and I became aware of my power over the people who were drawn to me. The combination of control and confidence was a drug in my veins; I had power and it was AMAZING. It’s not as though I went from photography geek to prom queen. No, it was a dangerous mix of freedom, low-self esteem, and decent genetics. It didn’t take long for me to shift my thinking and change how I viewed my life. Everything and everyone became something to conquer.
I went from 0 – 100 in no time at all, and it quickly culminated in disaster. But that was years ago. Yet, the damage has taken so much time and energy to repair. Determination, willpower, and discipline have tempered how I consider control now. I was not prepared to be an adult, I was not prepared to meet the demands of a world outside my hometown bubble, and I paid for it with setbacks and heartache. However, I learned from those experiences.
Now, that same hard-headedness and willpower I used previously to be selfish, I’m now using to advance causes and people I believe in. I control my digital work environment and have confidence in the mission that I’ve been tasked with carrying out. Now, my conquests are not the conquests of people, but more they are conquests about or for people. No walk of shame here – for anyone. This is my time to be strong
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